book review // “kiss me in new york” by catherine rider

kissmeinnewyorktitle: kiss me in new york
author: catherine rider
genre: young adult contemporary
type: eCopy provided by kids can press/edelweiss
release date: 03.10.2017
pages: 200
start: 29.11.2017
finish: 03.12.2017
rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐

 

“We’re looking into each other’s eyes, and I think we’re both a little stunned by how great that kiss was.”

 

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thanks so much to edelweiss and kids can press for providing me with this eCopy in exchange for my honest opinion.

 

what it’s about:
it’s christmas eve in new york and charlotte is desperately awaiting her flight back home to england. after a bad break up she just wants to leave the place she wanted to study in the future. but you don’t always get what you want. so when her flight gets cancelled, she finds herself in the biggest cities in the world. but she’s not alone. because fate means otherwise. she meets anthony at the airport and witnesses a scene that crushes him. together they go on an adventure in new york and try to forget their past relationships.

 

what i think:
i love christmas. it’s definitely my favorite holiday. i love new york. it’s one of my favorite cities. i am a romantic. this is a love story. so when i read the synopsis for “kiss me in new york” it was clear: i NEED to read this book. and i had a lot of fun doing it.

charlotte is great character, that i immediately liked. she got dumped by her ex-boyfriend and all her hopes and plans were crushed. it’s totally understandable, that she wants to leave new york immediately. also, i am a huge fan of british characters. so i was a fan of charlotte from the start. her heart broken she needed to make a decision and as fate always does, she meets this cute guy, that’s going to help her. anthony is also very sweet and having his heart broken this way just hit me in the heart. i totally get, why it was a great idea to pair these two together. and the way it was done, is just perfect. i won’t go into too  much detail, but i loved the basis of this adventure. it was cute and fun and actually this kind of stuff can really work.

the best part about the story for me was new york though. i mean, it was clear right from the start, that this is a love story and that it will end the way it ended. it’s just predictable from the start. but that doesn’t mean, that it was executed badly. it’s the other way around. it was executed very well. i laughed a lot about everything that happens to charlotte and anthony. i was in love with mistake right from the start and it’s just so much fun going on a tour through new york with them. i enjoyed it very much.

the story also touches some deeper stuff, which i didn’t predict at all and which touched me so much. i teared up and i love how it got resolved in the end. i love it, when there are unpredictable things happening in a cute love story. i mean i could predict the ending, but what happened in between was cute, fluffy, exciting and also emotional. that’s the way it should be.

all in all this book gave me everything i wanted: a cute love story in one of the best cities in the world and all that during christmas. i enjoyed it very much and it warmed my heart. there are only two things i didn’t like, because it didn’t resonate with me personally very much. the first thing are anthonys thoughts during the first part of the book. of course he is crushed, but come on! be a man! i mean, a person who does THAT to him doesn’t desevere his time or thoughts AT ALL!!! i was really mad at some points. the other thing i didn’t like was one part of the ending. it considers charlottes decision. and i know, that the author wanted to let charlotte make her own decision, but i could definitely feel, that charlotte based her decision not on herself. i was sad about that, because that’s also a personal thing for me that i just can’t understand. i think these two things touched me personally too much and that’s why i got emotionally more invested and didn’t like in the end.

 

what you should know:
“kiss me in new york” by catherine rider is a perfect, cute love story for the christmas time. it’s fun, adventurous and it takes place in one of the best cities of the world – new york. if you like predictable contemporaries, that are fun to read and also deep at some points, then this book is definitely the right one for you.

 

“kiss me in new york” on goodreads
catherine rider on goodreads

book review // “artemis” by andy weir

artemis22title: artemis
author: andy weir
genre: science fiction
type: paperback
pages: 302
start: 08.11.2017
finish: 24.11.2017
rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐

 

“The city shined in the sunlight like a bunch of metallic boobs. What? I’m not a poet. They look like boobs.”

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what it’s about:
jazz bashara lives in the only city on the moon. she works as a porter and delivers things to people, but she also is a criminal, because she tries to get more money by smuggling. one day she gets an offer she can’t resist and wants to pull off the perfect crime. of course things don’t go as they should and suddenly she finds herself in situation, that not only brings her in danger but also the people close to her.

 

what i think:
i have to admit, that i was very scared to pick up “artemis”. “the martian” was one of my favorite books of last year and of course i had certain expectations regarding “artemis”. i have also read very mixed reviews and i didn’t know, what to think. but as usual, i just pick up what i want to read. and i am glad i did, because i enjoyed it so, so much. it wasn’t the second “the martian” but i still had a very good time reading it.

most people complain about jazz. that they don’t like her. well, i am one of the people who love that girl. i loved what she said, she is hilarious. i laughed so hard many times and she is just so sassy, which spoke to me immensly. i just love her as a character. how she tells the truth, how she doesn’t sugarcoat anything, how she is just herself. i also loved that she is so smart. oh my, this girl knows a lot and she shows what she can do. i really enjoyed that about her. but the most important thing that i liked about her, was that she does everything she does to protect herself and of course you can see throughout this book, that she has a heart. in the end i was so happy about her and her reasons for everything, that she saved herself a spot in my heart.

all the other characters are also very well drawn out. jazz’ father and his relationship to his daugther is very interesting and i completely understand both of them. i really loved dean and svoboda is just hilarious. i laughed so hard. the relationships in this book kept me going and i was surprised that there was such a huge cast, each and every one different from each other.

of course this book has also science in it. a lot. if you read “the marian” you know that. this book wasn’t different and i loved that parts too. everything was understandable, even since english isn’t my first language. i had no problems following the story and i loved all the sciency parts.

what surpsrised me the most was the whole plot. wow, i did not expect that. i have to say, that i didn’t know much before going into this book, but the plot is just so good. there are things happening, that i never would have thought of. also a lot of twists, that kept me reading. i did not expect this story at all, but i enjoyed it very much. i mean, i love mysterys and crime and thriller and somehow it felt, like this was such a story set in space. there was nothing more i could wish for. there is just one thing, that bugged me. well not really bugged. i enjoyed this book a lot, but it wasn’t “the martian”, which is perfection for me. so i had to take down one star of my rating, because i loved this book, but it couldn’t compete.

 

what you should know:
“artemis” by andy weir is a fun and adventorous story set on the moon. you will get a little mystery, that will keep you reading. you will get science to understand how life on the moon works. you will get a great cast of characters and a main character, that is sarcastic, hilarious and tells everything how it is. i definitely recommend it, because it’s a good science-fiction book, that is very enjoyable.

 

“artemis” on goodreads
andy weir on goodreads

book review // “180 seconds” by jessica park

180secondstitle: 180 seconds
author: jessica park
genre: new adult contemporary
type: ebook
pages: 300
start: 26.11.2017
finish: 26.11.2017
rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐

 

“You can’t reach what’s in front of you until you let go of what’s behind you.”

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what it’s about:
allison had a rough past. she was in foster care for about 16 years and only got adopted in high school. she struggles with trust issues and connections to other people. in her third year of college she is picked to be part of a social experiment – to look into the eyes of another person for 180 seconds. these 180 seconds change her life forever.

 

what i think:
do you know the feeling, when you hear or read about a book and you have the sudden urge to just pick it up right this moment? that’s what happened to me with “180 seconds” by jessica park. the wonderful noriko from diary of a bookfiend posted a review last week and i immediately jumped on amazon and bought the kindle version. yesterday i spend the day reading it and oh my god, what an emotional ride.

i totally agree with noriko, that you shouldn’t know too much about this book. just take it in. because there is a lot to take in. right from the start i was glued to the pages. allison gets introduced so well, that i immediately was hooked. i saw how broken she is and i got this feeling, that i need to protect her. i was sad and i pitied her, which is not good, because that’s not what she needs. but i also could totally understand her feelings and i was sad from the beginning. then things start to happen and i just couldn’t stop reading. there is so much happening. there are so many feelings and emotions adressed, that i felt myself just lost in this story.

when the experiment was mentioned i found myself holding my breath, because i was so invested in that scene, it was incredibly. jessica park did an amazing job, writing out this scene. it is so intense, i got goosebumps and i didn’t know what to feel. it was just so good.

all the events starting from there had me on a rollercoaster of emotions. i was sad, angry, hopeless, hopeful, happy. i cried so many times during this book, because there are moments that just hit me so hard. i don’t want to spoil anything, but this is not a happy love story. this is so much more. yes, you might get the feeling, that this is all insta-love and happily ever after and bla bla. but i assure you. there are so many layers to this book. it messed with my mind and my heart. it went deep. it hurt me and left me speechless at times but it also gave me so much hope and a warm feeling.

the characters in this book are wonderful. allison is so strong, i can’t even how she does it. i am so happy for her development in this book, i just even can’t describe it. esben is also a wonderful character. i fell in love with him immediately. everything he does and says is just so cute. i had this warm feeling all the time. of course he has some baggage too and i was shocked, but all he does makes up for everything. steffi is also such a strong character and i am so thankful for her. of course i wished, that some things would have gone differently, but i completely understand, what she does and she has a very special place in my heart right now. my favorite character is simon though. this guy. oh my god i love this guy. he is the most awesome person ever. his relationship with allison gave me so many tears. i can’t even describe it. you really need to read this book, to see what an awesome cast of characters this is.

 

what you should know:
“180 seconds” by jessica park is an emotional rollercoaster. it’s not just a cute contemporary romance. there is so much more to this book. in the end you won’t be able to describe what you feel, because this book will leave you with so many emotions. it deals with some heavy topics too, so be prepared for crying and being angry. but also be prepared that you will have a lot of positive feelings too. i definitely recommend this book to anyone, because it’s just so beautiful and wonderful and deep and you will think about it and your behavior in general a lot.

 

“180 seconds” on goodreads
jessica park on goodreads

book review // “nyxia” by scott reintgen

nyxiatitle: nyxia
author: scott reintgen
genre: young adult science fiction
type: paperback
pages: 384
start: 08.10.2017
finish: 21.11.2017
rating: ⭐⭐⭐.75

 

“With millions of dollars at stake, walking away isn’t an option.”

 

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what it’s about:
emmett is chosen to leave earth. when babel communications approaches him and offers him a lot of money, he has no choice. he needs to do this job to save his family. he is recruited with nine other teenagers to go into space and eventually land on eden, a planet that is full of nyxia, a very important substance. to do this he needs to compete with the other teenagers, because not everybody will go to eden and get the money they were offered. emmett finds himself in a competition where he needs to decide who the enemy is and what he’s willing to loose.

 

what i think:
“nyxia” and i didn’t have a good start. i was really excited for this book, because i have heard so many good things. and then i picked it up and it just didn’t click. i had some problems getting into it and my science-fiction mood just went away. so every time i picked it up, it didn’t go well. i made the right decision to put it back down and wait until my sci-fi mood is back. because when it came back, i loved the last third of the book.

emmett is a great character, who knows what he wants. he feels that he needs to protect his family and that’s his only goal. he’s going to do everything that he needs to accomplish it. i felt for him from the beginning and i could totally understand, why he did what he did. but i also knew, that he wouldn’t get far with his attitude. no person can be on his own forever and i loved it, how he opened up and saw, that he can’t just abandon all social contact and do this on his own. he grew so much throughout this book and became a very strong person, who still knows his values and what’s the right thing to do.

next to emmett there is a huge cast of characters. some of them i was intrigued by. some of them i really loved. some of them i hated, but they grew on me. i think scott reintgen did an amazing job with this cast of characters, because they are different, amazing, brutal and totally surprising. you will be shocked, you will smile, you will be angry and there is not one emotion you won’t feel with these characters.

the whole concept of babel communications was very intriguing. there was always this weird feeling in the back of my head, because something didn’t seem right. why all the money? why all the trouble? and i loved it, how piece by piece it was revealed what kind of organization this is. it shocked me many times, i had to hold my breath many times and all the twists and turns that came throughout this book were very well done, because i didn’t expect them at all. i could not predict one thing, which is pretty amazing.

so as you can see, in the end i really liked this book. and would i have been in my science fiction mood, i would definitely rate it more stars, because in the end i couldn’t put it down. i read the last third in one go and i wished, that i could have done that from the beginning. unfortunately something was missing that kept me from it, so i have to give “nyxia” a rating of 3.75 stars.

 

what you should know:
“nyxia” by scott reintgen is an adventure. there is so much action in this book, that you won’t get bored at all, because there is constantly something happening. the cast of characters is diverse and the whole concept of babel communications is intriguing. if you love young adult science-fiction books, you will definitely enjoy this book, because the twists and turns make it a real page turner, that will definitely shock you at times.

 

“nyxia” on goodreads
scott reintgen on goodreads

blog tour: “watching glass shatter” by james j. cudney // review & exciting poll

hello fellow bookoholics! ❤ sometimes things just happen in your life. for no reason. but then amazing things start to follow. when i started my blog, jay from this is my truth now was one of the first people to like my posts. i went to check out his blog and i read about the 365 daily challenge. and suddenly we started talking. i loved the whole idea and it was so much fun talking to jay. he made my day many times. his picked words that often come at the right time and i don’t even want to start with ryder, his beautiful dog. jay was always friendly and we developed a friendship over time which i am very, very happy about. 🙂

when i found out, that jay wrote a book, i was excited. i love his writing on his blog, so of course i wanted to read his novel. i got the chance to read the first chapters of “watching glass shatter” and i was immediately hooked. so imagine me finding out that jay got published. i was soooo excited and so proud of him. the minute the book was available for kindle, i went over and bought it. i own the paperback now, because i am in love with that book, with that cover and with the characters. you can read my full review below. just so you know, this is my honest opinion. i think jay is amazing, but my thoughts for “watching glass shatter” are my own. just a little spoiler: i LOVED it! 😀

 

The Book:

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title: watching glass shatter

author: james j. cudney

genre: fiction/family drama/mystery

pages: 278

publisher: creativia

published: october 8th, 2017

 

 

 

“I know they love me. But will they remember me as a kind, generous, caring mother who nursed their wounds, blanketed them with kisses and offered them the keys to the world. Or will they remember me as the tough, controlling and impractical woman who simply gave birth to them?”

 

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what it’s about:
after the death of her husband benjamin, olivia glass finds out about a big secret, that ben kept from her for so many years. olivia is shocked to hear the truth about one of her five sons and doesn’t know how to deal with this big secret on her own. she needs to make a decision, that could change the lives of everybody in the glass family forever.

 

what i think:
as i said before, a few months ago i got the opportunity to read the first chapters of “watching glass shatter”. i was so happy, that jay made it possible. and now that i have read it in its entirety, i can honestly say, that i loved everything about this book.

i still can’t believe, that this is a debut novel. the writing is beautiful and so well done. i got lost in all the words and jay went with so many twists and turns, that worked out so great. nothing is predictable, there are cliffhangers at the right time and jay made this book into such a page turner. i could not put it down and i am still very impressed, that this is in fact a debut novel. first of all, there are a lot of characters to keep track of, but every character got the right amount of pages and they are introduced in a way, that i never lost focus. every character gets a fluent story, that is interesting and feels very relatable. these are characters, that are real. they have real problems, they have secrets, they could be anyone you and i know. and that makes this book so amazing. i could understand every character in the glass family. i could understand what they went through. i felt for them. i started loving them very early and i loved them until the end of this book.

“watching glass shatter” starts off with an introduction to the story and every character in the glass family. i slowly got to know olivia, teddy, caleb, zach, matt and ethan. i got to know about their lives, about their personalities and about the big secret each of them is hiding. and i slowly fell in love with everyone. so of course i was on edge all the time, because i knew what could happen in the end. i was scared. this was brilliantly done, because i got to know these people, i started to love them and i wanted to protect them. they went through enough and i wanted a happy ending. the way jay went with the story and revealed one secret after the other, is amazing. i was emotionally invested and so it was easy to feel anger, shock, happiness and all the feels there are to feel. the last pages of this book had me sobbing. i was crying so much, that i couldn’t see the letters anymore and needed a break. this book and these characters touched me so much, that i want more of this family. more this relatable and real family that warmed my heart.

the strongest person in this story is definitely olivia glass. i mean, i rooted for her although she isn’t a very likeable character. she is this hard and tough woman, who isn’t easy to crack. who doesn’t give everybody the best treatment and needs things to go her way. basically, she’s a person i wouldn’t like if i had met her in real life. but she is also very strong. she goes through a lot and all of her decisions are totally understandable. i really liked how she developed throughout this novel and how she does everything she can for her family. jay really did a wonderful job with the characters, but especially with olivia, since he made me root for a not very likeable character, who i ended up loving in the end. this is great work!

i could say so many more things i loved about this book, i could go into detail about every character, but i think, that people need to read it on their own to understand, why this debut novel is so amazing and touching. not just the cover is fantastic, but the whole story and all the characters are too.

 

what you should know:
“watching glass shatter” by james j. cudney is a suspenseful family drama, that will make you feel all the emotions there are. you will be angry, you will be happy, you will cry and you will be hopeful. all characters are beautifully written, realistic and relatable. there is no way, you won’t become a huge fan of everyone in the glass family. the writing is thrilling and beautiful, so that you will have a page turner in your hands, that you will not want to put down. “watching glass shatter” is a wonderful debut novel that i highly recommend to anyone. (and still do all the time)

 

 

now that you know, that i am a huge fan of “watching glass shatter”, i am very happy to announce something very special for you. jay and i have been working on this and it was soooooo much fun. as if he didn’t have to do other stuff. this guy is like a machine. i have absolutely no idea, how he does the things he does. please check out all interviews he did during his blog tour, because you’ll get to know him and how his schedule works. (spoiler: it’s insane). but let’s get back to the exciting news. i am very happy, that i can share this upcoming poll with you, because let’s be honest, we all want “watching glass shatter” to become a movie or tv series. right? right? so without further ado:

 

 

if you need any help remember some characteristics of the characters, here’s a quick reminder:

Ben – 70 – lawyer, tall, wiry, speaks formally, family person, thoughtful, romantic

Olivia – 68 – patrician, dark sable shoulder length hair with grey coming in, cerulean blue eyes, ivory skin, distant, strong yet can be abrasive

Diane – 65 – olivia’s sister and confidante, looks a bit older, long braided hair, usually calm and relaxed, the aunt everyone loves

Teddy – 31 – lawyer with a nervous tick, tall, greying hair, green eyes, distant, almost stoic and disconnected

Matt – 30 – accountant, emotional, average height, witty, sports-oriented, nervous and excited easily, father of 3 young girls, an all-around good guy, golden boy in the family

Caleb – 29 – architect, wavy dark hair and olive skin, sensitive but introspective, enjoys nature and the outdoors, intelligent, respected by all

Zach – 28 – DJ, single-father, tattoos, light beard, in very good shape, dark/sexy musician, sarcastic, the bad boy

Ethan – 23 – doctor, lanky, wiry frame, reddish-blond hair, several freckles, loving and kind, baby of the family

Rowena – 49 – scottish, wears simple clothing, deep-set eyes, blueish green in color, pasty skin with little makeup, medium height, thin waist, ordinary woman

 

 

i hope you have fun voting, because i had sooo much fun talking about the possible actors and actresses with jay. 🙂

 

and last but not least, here’s some more information about “watching glass shatter” or jay.

1.) you can get the kindle version or paperback edition on amazon.

2.) there’s a giveaway on goodreads until november 30th

3.) jay gave an interview on the radio at artist first radio. he did an amazing job and i am very proud of him. you can listen to the whole interview here

 

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“watching glass shatter” on goodreads
james j. cudney on goodreads

james j. cudney’s website
the glass family
jay on twitter
jay on instagram

 

 

 

thank you all so much for reading! i highly recommend you get yourself a copy of “watching glass shatter”. you won’t be disappointed! 🙂 and thank you jay for letting me be part of this great blog tour. it was so much fun! 🙂

book review // “when dimple met rishi” by sandhya menon

whendimplemetrishititle: when dimple met rishi
author: sandhya menon
genre: ya-contemporary
type: audiobook
duration: 10h 45m
start: 12.11.2017
finish: 15.11.2017
rating: ⭐⭐⭐.5

 

This is our life. We get to decide the rules. We get to say what goes and what stays, what matters and what doesn’t!”

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what it’s about:
dimple has a dream. she wants to study at stanford and go attend a summer program for web developers to meet her idol and work on her app idea. she doesn’t want to get married and fulfill the wishes of her parents. rishi is different. he wants to please his parents and when they show him, that dimple could be his future wife, he can’t wait to meet her. but things don’t always go as planned, especially when there’s one person who doesn’t have a clue what’s going on.

 

what i think:
when “when dimple met rishi” was published, i didn’t pick it up immediately, although i knew, that i would probably like it. i mean it’s a love story and contemporary and exactly what i want. but i waited and just picked it up, when it was available at my library. i was in the mood for something fluffy.

after the first chapters i was very happy. the audiobook was narrated very well and i had a feeling that i would have a good time. it was funny, i laughed a lot and the premise sounded good. i immediately felt a personal connection because dimple and rishi were at SFSU, the university i studied myself for half a year. so it was amazing to go back in time. every time it was mentioned, my heart beat faster. that was so cool. also the whole competition sounded great. i studied computer science myself and reading about female programmers is always great. i was excited, i wanted this story. but in the end i was disappointed.

the whole story wasn’t about web development, it was basically all about a love story that shouldn’t be. and usually i don’t mind it at all, but here i really felt, that it was out of place. first of all we have dimple. she is this strong character. she knows what she wants and what she doesn’t want. i liked that about her a lot. i could relate to her and i knew, that her feelings were true. then there is rishi, who is weak and needs to experience some things before finding out what he truly wants. and stand up for himself. i liked how he developed throughout the story and his decision in the end was great. i liked how the whole cultural aspect was done and how both characters tried to live their own life, but also tried to please their parents, because they valued their opinion. that was well done and i really liked the parents in this story.

what bugged me was the whole love story. usually i am a sucker for a good love story. and don’t get me wrong, i really enjoyed myself at some points. what i didn’t like is how fast everything went. for such a short period of time, things got so serious, it’s crazy. dimple basically looses everything she believes in. what she wants doesn’t matter any more and the whole summer program went into the background. i didn’t like it, because that was a fascinating part for me. suddenly it was all about this relationship that went too serious way too fast. the worst thing is dimple’s decision, even though she knows, that she doesn’t want this. i know that feelings sometimes happen but forgetting everything else you believe in over this just seems wrong and i didn’t like that part. it was so predictable in the end and honestly i didn’t want that drama. i wanted more character development, i wanted more web development, i wanted more comics and just all in all i wanted the characters to grow up and develop themselves and then just see where this relationship goes. not the other way around. not forgetting everything and just focus on this love. that’s a mistake in my opinion, especially in that age. i was sad, that the ending happend how it happend, and i wish that dimple made different decisions. but that’s just my opinion.

 

what you should know:
“when dimple met rishi” by sandhya menon is a funny and light contemporary that will definitely make you laugh at some points. if you enjoy love stories, you will like this. the cultural aspect was done very well and the parents of both main characters were integrated very well in the story. if you are interested in web development and a female programmer and want to know more about app development, this book isn’t for you, because this is not the focus of this book. it’s focused on the love story between two teenagers, that aren’t grown up yet and let their feelings get in the way of their own personal development. i enjoyed the audiobook, because it was narrated very well and made me laugh. i just wasn’t happy with the ending and the serious relationship development in such a short time.

 

“when dimple met rishi” on goodreads
sandhya menon on goodreads

book review // “starfish” by akemi dawn bowman

starfishtitle: starfish
author: akemi dawn bowman
genre: ya-contemporary
type: hardback
pages: 340
start: 12.11.2017
finish: 12.11.2017
rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐

 

Things aren’t black and white, hot and cold, happy and sad. They’re complicated. Feelings are complicated.

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what it’s about:
kiko himura has a big dream. She wants to get into her dream art school to get away from her life. to get away from her troubled mother, her troubled family and all the problems, she can’t deal with anymore. she wants to be on her own and life a new life. but sometimes getting what you want isn’t that easy and when kiko is confronted with her biggest fears, she needs to decide what to do. she gets some help from her childhood best friend, who comes back at the right time in her life.

 

what i think:
do you know the feeling, when you look on your bookshelves, see a certain book and just want to pick it up? that’s what happened to me with “starfish” by akemi dawn bowman. i have already started many books but when i saw “starfish”, it was calling to me. so i picked it up. several hours later i was finished. i loved it.

first of all, the cover is amazing. i love the jellyfish and the turtle and it is definitely a cover, that made me pick up this book. after reading the first sentences i knew that i would love this book. the writing is magical. it totally drew me into the story and didn’t let me go. there were so many amazing quotes and metaphors, that i was literally saying “awww” all the time out loud. the writing is perfect throughout this book and i got lost in it.

then there is kiko. i loved her from the beginning. she was this vulnerable character, that i wanted to hug. but i didn’t need much time to figure out, that she is a very strong character too. i have no idea, where this girl takes her strength, but i was fascinated by her from the beginning. i wanted to protect her but by the end i knew, that she doesn’t need protection. and that’s the good part, because kiko has social anxiety, which was portrayed very good in this book. sometimes i totally got, what she was feeling and to some degree i could absolutely relate to her. the social anxiety part was portrayed in a way, that it gave you goosebumps, because every one of us experiences this to some degree. and i loved how she said “no”. she told the truth about what she was feeling and that was amazing. she needed some time to get to that point, but it was done so well. i was very proud of kiko in the end. everything she did made her only stronger and her development was amazing.

another very well done part was the whole family aspect. now, i wish that nobody in this world has to experience what kiko experiences at home with her mother. i am not even talking about what happened with her uncle, i am talking about her mother. i wanted to punch her like in every conversation she had with kiko. this woman made me furious. i hated her. so, so, much. this isn’t normal and this woman has so many problems. and i absolutely can see, where kiko and her brothers get their characteristics. i was very sad, that she couldn’t connect with her brothers, but i totally get, why this isn’t possible. that woman didn’t make it possible and i was crying and shouting so many times, because i got so emotionally involved in that family story. i can’t even describe, how many emotions i felt throughout this book. i am just happy, that it ended the way it did. it wasn’t exaggarated at all and i think that it was resolved very well.

another very beautiful part of this book was the friendship between kiko and jamie. yes, there were feelings involved and i was afraid, that this would be a story, where love heals everything. but it wasn’t and that’s what i loved about it. jamie is a phenomenal character. i love him so, so much. he isn’t pushy. he protects kiko, he is there for her and he listens to her. he never forced her to do anything and some gestures just melted my heart. this guy. ❤ i am so in love with him. but as i said. this wasn’t the typical love story and things happen, but the way kiko deals with them are wonderful. that was exactly what i wanted her to do and i am very proud of her for what she accomplished and how she developed. the ending was perfect!

as you can see, i can’t find one thing that is negative in this book. even the cultural aspect was done so well. i could relate to kiko in every way and understood how she was feeling because of her mom and her past. the way she experiences new things that make her feel whole made me cry. i was so happy for her and the joy she felt went straight through me. it was amazing. the fact, that i read this book in one sitting also speaks for itself.

 

what you should know:
“starfish” by akemi dawn bowman is a heartbreaking and heartwarming story about a girl who doesn’t know where she belongs to. she just wants to get away and find her own way and live her dream as a painter. to overcome her fears. not to depend on anybody and be free of her dark past. it is emotional and will definitely make you cry. you will feel so many different feelings while reading this book. keep in mind, that these could be trigger warnings: sexual abuse, familiar abuse and social anxiety. but even though it’s dark at some points and you will be frustrated, you come out of this book lighter and happy and positive. i recommend it to every young adult contemporary fan out there.

 

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