title: i’ll give you the sun
author: jandy nelson
rating: ⭐⭐⭐ . 5
“Meeting your soul mate is like walking into a house you’ve been in before – you will recognize the furniture, the pictures on the wall, the books on the shelves, the contents of drawers: You could find your way around in the dark if you had to.”
what it’s about:
this is the story of jude and noah – twins, who once divided the world amongst each other. they were inseparable but still had their own personality. at the age of 14 something happens that changes both their lives drastically and they are farther apart as possible. jude tells the story a couple of years after the incident, that changed everything. noah tells the story that leads to this incident.
what i think:
i am not going to lie guys. i went into “i’ll give you the sun” because i wanted a fluffy, easy contemporary. well, was i mistaken. this book wasn’t easy and fluffy at all. it is really depressing but in the still full of hope.
i haven’t read a book by jandy nelson before, so this was my first experience with her writing style. i had problems with it and every time i put the book down, it was hard for me to get into that style again. i can’t even describe it, but it’s definitely different from other ya-contemporaries i’ve read before. (and i read a lot of those 😀 )
at one point, i was so frustrated with the writing style and i had the feeling, that i was not making any progress, so i was almost at the point of giving up. but then everything changed. i can’t even describe what, but from one page to another i was hooked. i wanted to read more and more and more… (you get the point 😉 )
“i’ll give you the sun” tells the story from two different sides. there is judes point of view, where she is 16 years old and her personality completely changed to the years before. she tells us, how her life looks like after a big incident that took place two years before. and then there is noah at the age of 13/14. he tells us the story that leads to the big incident, that changed everyones life. it’s a great and wonderful way to tell a story, especially from the point of view of twins, that are very close to each other. but unfortunately the story before the big incident was too long for me and at some point i wasn’t even curious to find out what happened.
then came a certain page and my mind started putting the pieces together and i enjoyed every page after that. i loved how everything came together in the end and how the characters developed. the change in jude makes me smile so much and also noahs feelings became so clear to me. i understood everything they wanted to say but couldn’t and i was sad, that it took such a long time for me to get to that point. i think, if the beginning into the story wasn’t that long and i could have felt more connected to the characters from the start, this book would get a way higher rating. because in the end, i loved the writing style. the second half of the book, when i knew where this is going, i totally fell in love with the writing style. it fit the story so perfectly. but since it has taken me so long to get into “i’ll give you the sun”, i couldn’t have all the feelings that i should have. this makes me sad, because i love a good cry-worthy book, but here, i just couldn’t feel it. and there were sooooooo many moments to feel.
i am sure, that many people will be blown away, when they get into “i’ll give you the sun” right from the beginning. i think jandy nelson did a wonderful job. i will definitely give her another try and read her other book “the sky is everywhere”. but this time i will read first, in what mood i should be while reading it. 😀
what you should know:
“i’ll give you the sun” is wonderful, when you know, what you should expect. it is not an easy read. it is not fluffy. it is hard and serious and at some point really depressing. it can make you cry. so be prepared for that, when you pick it up. for me it did not work out the way it should have, but i didn’t know what i would get and now i am mad at myself, because this could have been way better for me right from the start. 😦 (this is a mental *facepalm* to myself)